Must Read Autobiographies - XXV

The Year Of Magical Thinking

Joan Didion

The Year of Magical Thinking (2005), written by Joan Didion, was first published in 2005. It is an account of the year following the death of the author's husband John Dunne, in 2003. 

Days before his death, their daughter, Quintana, was hospitalized in New York with pneuonia which developed more complications. John died when Quintana she was still unconscious. During 2004 Quintana was again hospitalized after a collapse and brain hemorrhage.

The narrative structure of the book follows Didion's re-living and re-analysis of her husband's death throughout the year following it, in addition to caring for Quintana. With each replay of the event, the focus on certain emotional and physical aspects of the experience shifts. Didion also incorporates medical and psychological research on grief and illness into the book.

The title of the book refers to magical thinking in a sense that if a person hopes for something enough or performs the right actions then an unavoidable event can be averted. Didion reports many instances of her own magical thinking, particularly the story in which she cannot give away Dunne's shoes, as he would need them when he returned. The experience of insanity or derangement that is part of grief is a major theme, about which Didion was unable to find a great deal of existing literature.

Didion applies the iconic reportorial detachment for which she is known to her own experience of grieving; there are few expressions of raw emotion. Through observation and analysis of changes in her own behavior and abilities, she indirectly expresses the toll her grief is taking. She is haunted by questions concerning the medical details of her husband's death, the possibility that he sensed it in advance, and how she might have made his remaining time more meaningful. Fleeting memories of events and persistent snippets of past conversations with John take on a new significance. Her daughter's continuing health problems and hospitalizations further compound and interrupt the natural course of grief.

It is a classic account of personal grief.

Namaste

Prabir